Sunday, May 31, 2015

Day #20

Saturday May 30th, 2015

Tired, tired, tired.

The weather is once again having an impact on my ability to wake up in the morning. It's the end of May and temps are in the 40's, it's damp and the sky is leaden. I slept the requisite 8-ish hours, even took my Calm powder like a good girl, but waking today has been a challenge. Unmotivated, cold, eyes crusty... Sigh... 

I'm slurping my first cuppa for the day and wondering if there will be any reward for this torture. Weight loss has been negligible at best, energy levels are not improving, gut problems persist, and I still have the bloat. It went away very briefly but is back with a vengeance. I look like I'm pregnant and that isn't an exaggeration. Tummy protruding out over my waist band every day by noon, and trust me when I say that I'm already in my fat pants. The fit is loose in the morning and by the time I drive home in the evening I need to unbutton them so I can breathe.


Today my plan was to get up, have tea, and hit the trails with my trusty interval timer and put a few miles on my trail runners. The sun was supposed to be out but it isn't. Rains aren't supposed to be coming in until this afternoon, but they appear to be here. It isn't raining but looks like it could any moment. #TheStruggleIsReal

Enough wallowing!! I'm busting my ass to beat this disorder into submission, damn it. Not to whine about how hard it is. BUT IT IS HARD.

In an effort to lift my wah-wah-poor-me mood, I took a stab at making something pancakey for my breakfast using this stuff

And this is what they looked like:

They were, perhaps, a tad on the thick and gooey side (should've added some water, eh?) but they were good if not a little raw in the middle, and they satisfied my childish love of pancakes for the day. Next time I'll add more liquid to thin the batter, and maybe add some coconut flour to add some crispness. I love a crisp outside on my pancakes. 


Weight: 163.6
Energy level: XX low
BM: Ah yes, a big one
Other Gastro: Bloaty as hell
Mental clarity: S'okay 
Mood: I need some sunshine damnittohell!

Because I went into such gory detail about my breakfast, and my list of consumables is huge, I'm just gibing you the highlights again. Seems fair to me. If anyone has specific questions feel free to hit me up in the comments.

Saturday, May 30, 2015

Day #19

Friday May 29th, 2015

I have been forgetting to mention something that has recently reappeared as a problem, after it almost disappeared completely: eczema on my digits. It is now at epic proportions! Generally it starts to clear up in the spring and I don't have it at all in summer or fall, but right now it's crazy. Finger tips are cracked, bleeding and painful. It's hard to wash my hair for crying out loud. Not sure if this sloughing off of things is a reflection of internal changes, but I will have to remember to ask Dr. Jessica about it. Intriguing, no?


Weight: 163.8 (ARGHHHHH)
Energy level: Not too shabby today.
BM: Yeah, little one
Other Gastro: Super gassy
Mental clarity: Good
Mood: Very good, it's Friday y'all!

My calories for the day:

Friday, May 29, 2015

Day #18

Thursday May 28th, 2015

I could have slept through the morning. My body and my mind are fatigued for reasons I don't understand, and my energy is sapped today. Not a great way to start the day. Even my face feels tired, which is ridiculous. It feels puffy as though I hadn't slept. I did sleep, and pretty soundly last night (but I was having drowning dreams, a sign of the stress I'm under at work). 

I got to go for a run/walk at lunch, which was awesome and made the rest of my day soooo much better. Unfortunately the poof came back afterward and I spent the rest of the day being bloated. Bleh.


Weight: 164 (See? Told you!)
Energy level: Non-existent
BM: Yes but it's loose, light in color and snakey. Awful stuff. An abundance of it.
Other Gastro: Not gassy or bloated (so far, but it's early)
Mental clarity: Pretty clear, considering how fatigued I feel
Mood: Not bad, actually. 

Just the facts: today I'm working and posting from a different office, so I can't get a decent screen grab of the whole picture, so here's the top line instead.

Please forgive the general lack-o-detail. I tend to eat the same thing for breakfast and lunch every day, so not much excitement there. I did burn a lot of cals yesterday and had some extra calories (which I usually don't do) because after a run I am starved. Body craves carbs, I give it protein. Take that!

Thursday, May 28, 2015

Day #17

Wednesday May 27th, 2015

It occurs to me that some of you may be wondering why so much organic stuff, Karen? And The answer is, simply: chemicals. I'm trying to avoid consumption of chemical fertilizers. I'm also trying hard to steer clear of GMOs. This is not so easy, not near as easy as getting into organics. I'm giving it my all though, and fully intend to visit the farmer's market every week once they open for the season. Lots of organics there, but of course I will have to ask about GMOs. It's a hard knock life, eh?

Next up: last night I felt just horrible. I'm not sure what is going on in the ol' GI tract, but it wasn't pleasant. I felt anxious and hot, clenched my teeth a lot and was quite worried that I wouldn't be able to sleep. I took an uber dose of the Calm powder, which made me more concerned because that usually knocks me out. But last night I had to work for my sleep. Proof is here in the pudding (why on earth is that an expression?), check it out. I was awake a lot for someone that drank knockout powder.

So, yeah. Rough night. Which leaves me tired and a wee bit cranky today, but hey, I've been a crank-opotamus a lot lately. At least the frigging sun is shining. Makes me wants to shuck off my clothes and go lay on top of a mountain.


Weight: 163.2
Energy level: Meh
BM: Itty-bitty, hoping for more later
Other Gastro: After a gas-and-bloat afternoon and evening - not bad today. Very hungry.
Mental clarity: Good

Mood: I think I'll answer this later. Right now it's bad again. Sorry so negative.

So, here's another question: since I have kept that 4.4 pounds off for around a week now, do I count that as "lost"? Lemme tell ya something kids, I desperately want to count it as lost. But, and this is a big but - I can't, not yet. I still can't. Because I'm paranoid and always think it's going to sneak back onto my body. So it has to be two weeks, or I no count, okay? Okay.

What I consumed:

Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Day #16

Tuesday May 26th, 2015

Hello again.

Today I feel rather under the weather in my gut region. Meh. Got super gassy last night (it's been a while!) after drinking red wine. Not sure if that was the cause but it's out of my diet now for several reasons: 

1) It didn't taste good to me
2) I had to force myself through the first glass
3) I think it's holding me back from getting better
4) You might be an alcoholic if you get through one and two, and then drink another glass!

So, yeah. Bye bye wine. It's bittersweet (much like wine itself - ha!) but I think the time is here. If I'm not enjoying it, what is the point? And I think part of why I'm not enjoying it is that I have the ghost of a feeling that it's truly hindering my healing process. So goodbye.

Honestly I think I miss coffee more than I will miss wine. And chocolate. Coffee and chocolate... I daydream of you!

More unhappiness of the day: I'm puffy again. Had to battle to put my wedding ring on. Clearly stuff is still wrong. Gas and bloating set in around 3:00, a couple of hours after lunch. All I ate was one braised chicken thigh and roasted cauliflower. WHY. IS. THIS. HAPPENING?

A little bit of happening: the girls did intervals at lunch instead of just walking. Felt great to jog a bit. I'm registered for the Rock 'n Roll 10k in Vegas on November 15th, so it's time to get jogging (not running) back into my life. Gotta train. Gotta have a goal. Gotta push myself or I'll feel stagnant and awful.


Weight: 163.4
Energy level: Meh.
BM: Yes, late in the morning, very bad. Smelled horrific and was as sticky as baby poop. Totally gross.
Other Gastro: Discomfort, gas, bloating
Mental clarity: Meh.
Mood: Better than yesterday, at least I'm not pissed off! I just feel like I don't care. Meh.

What I consumed:

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Day #15

Memorial Day: Monday May 25th, 2015


I feel stalled. Back to having gastro pain and discomfort (minus bloating and chronic constipation, thank goodness) and my weight is completely stalled. For feeling better on the inside - even if it's just a little bit - I am grateful, but on the outside I look the same after two weeks of. I realize that this isn't long enough to see results as far as the gut healing but I NEED TO SEE SOMETHING!. This way of eating is a complete hassle, it makes eating out near impossible and I always seem to be cooking or scheming about what to cook and how to make it with the severe lack of ingredients. 

I guess you could say that I'm frustrated. Having a down day. Not feeling it. I think I need to eliminate one more thing, at least for a while: alcohol. I'm reading Root Cause and it's becoming quite evident that diet alone isn't going to get me where I need to be. I also may need some stool testing (to determine the extent of my gut leakiness, check for parasites, rule out/identify candida, etc. I also need to get real about insulin resistance, sugar, and alcohol. This saddens me because I love wine so, but it makes sense. Can't address the problems by only eliminating the items that I want to eliminate, eh? 

A few hours later...

I'm gonna go ahead and call a spade a spade - I'm in a total shit mood. I cleaned the house, did some laundry, took the little guy for a long walk, showered, and ran some errands. Nothing out of the ordinary. And yet - and yet, I was an angry bitch the whole time I was in contact with other people. Feck.



Weight: 163.4 (creeping back up, as predicted)
Energy level: So-so
BM: Small, greasy looking floater. Very unsatisfying.
Other Gastro: Super nauseated after taking vitamins today
Mental clarity: Good
Mood: Ummmmm, no. Not great. Or terrible. Depends on what time you ask me.

What I consumed:

Monday, May 25, 2015

Day #14

Sunday May 24th, 2015

The sun is shining! It won't last but at least I was able to start the day on a positive note, and with a relatively dry basement. Gives me time to catch up on all the household chores aside from swapping wet towels for dry, rinse and spin, pop 'em in the dryer... the cycle repeats all day long when it rains. A morning breaks is quite welcome!

I'm sitting down to a 1/2 pound bison burger for breakfast today - man, is it GOOD! I'm all over it. Felt like my body really wanted some protein this morning after eating so light yesterday. Yummy!

And now for some poop talk: I've had two days of the runnies, and I'm not sure why. Maybe it's my lower GI tract cleaning itself out. maybe I've eaten something that doesn't agree with me,  I'm not at all sure. I just know that I feel wrung out in the intestinal/bowel area, and it's not very comfortable. Ugh.


Weight: 163.2
Energy level: I didn't sleep long enough, but energy is good
BM: OMG yes, diarrhea again
Other Gastro: Cramps, lower GI tract discomfort
Mental clarity: Excellent!
Mood: Super. I'm doing some fun stuff today and I'm excited about it!

What I comsumed:

Sunday, May 24, 2015

Day #13

Saturday May 23rd, 2015
Woke up to a bad tummy and a freshly flooded basement. Sigh...


Weight: 163 (Awesome that I'm at the same weight two days in a row!)
Energy level: High
BM: Bad, bad BMs. What one might call the sick poops. Awful.
Other Gastro: Intestinal cramps
Mental clarity: Good!
Mood: Flooded basement and boo-boo tummy make for a not very pleasant Karen.

What I consumed:

Saturday, May 23, 2015

Day #12

Friday May 22nd, 2015

Happy Friday! This weekend is Memorial Day, thank the Lord. A day of solemn reflection for us as a country is a beautiful thing. 

It has been raining here for almost two weeks, and next week looks like more of the same. Ready to fly away just to see the dang sun, seriously. Hubby is going to Arizona this weekend and I'm horribly jealous - he might actually have to wear his sunglasses! Crying out loud, this dampness and grey all day gets very old, very fast.

It has been a very long week at work. We had the entire sales crew here for training, they were joined by the entire engineering crew from Canada, which made for quite a party the other night. It also makes for lots of meetings and discussions that, while stimulating, are rather exhausting in the long run. In our main office we have tons of meetings; the sales and engineering folk aren't used to being in meetings all day. I've had three days this week with less than 1 hour of time outside of meetings, which gets me hopelessly behind in my regular stuffs. I will be hitting the computer on the holiday to get caught up.


Weight: 163 (NOPE STILL NOT CELEBRATING! Been here, done this, 5 lbs can come back out of nowhere, trust me.)
Energy level: Great considering the lack o sunshine
BM: Marbles first thing, but it sure feels like I'm baking some brownies right now :-p
Other Gastro: Clear
Mental clarity: Ummmmm - it's Friday. So yeah. I'm so ready for the weekend, focus will be tough
Mood: YAY!!!

What I consumed:

Friday, May 22, 2015

Day #11

Thursday May 21st, 2015

I managed to get through a company happy hour without breaking my eating pattern! We converged upon a Mexican restaurant half a block from our office like a plague of locust - 30-something of us all at once. It was really fun. I was surrounded by tortilla chips (major weakness), queso dip, fried jalapeno poppers - all of it looked and smelled delicious. My good friend ordered some chicken drummies for me "bare" (no breading, no sauce) and they were delicious little chicken lollipops - so awesome. They turned out to be a huge hit at the party, and many platters of them were ordered and shared around. Chicken is what I would have had for dinner anyway, so this made me super happy. Life is good!

I had a teaspoon of the Calm drink last night before bed, and I fell asleep immediately. However I woke up 20 minutes later and felt wide awake - but wait, there's more! It took me a few minutes to fall back asleep but I slept like a log all night. All night! I didn't get up, I don't remember my dreams, I don't remember rolling over - nada. It was a perfect night of sleep. I'm super excited!

I'm having a fat day - I hate fat days. I feel bloated and like everything is skin tight even though it's not. Very strange. I've had them before but today is really bad because I'm very hungry, and having to hold myself back from eating. I've had tea, water, water, water, a little snacky, water, water, tea... I swear it's this awful, cloudy, cold, drizzly weather. It's just miserable.

Weight: 163.6 - still not excited!
Energy level: Good, not great. Still fecking raining. Bleh.
BM: Epic! Two of them, actually. 
Other Gastro: Fine, a wee bit hungry, but fine
Mental clarity: Decent - rain effects that in me too
Mood: Extremely good

What I consumed:

Thursday, May 21, 2015

Day #10

Wednesday May 20th, 2015

Dr. Jessica gave me an herb to suck on and then swallow after all three of my main meals; it's called Gymnema, and it's supposed to help with my blood sugars (which have been higher lately). It tastes pretty horrid, I keep it in my mouth for as long as a can then swallow it. This herb makes me super heat up from my tummy to my face! Almost flushed. This morning was the third time I've taken it and I actually broke a little sweat. Crazy, no? According to WebMD I need to keep an eye on my blood sugar because this can make it drop too low. So now I'm going to be checking it obsessively, which will make the Endo go "Huh?" How to try something new without involving her? That is the question. I don't want or need a lecture on how I'm buying snake oil again.

Something I've been remiss in leaving out is my sleep. I think I addressed it briefly a couple of times, but haven't made a point of talking about daily. Sleep patterns are important because all healing and resets within our bodies happen while we sleep. 

The night of May 19-20 I slept poorly, as I had the three night previous. I was walking a lot, restless a lot, getting up at least twice per night, etc. There was lots of red or pink or whatever color it is on the Fitbit sleep tracker. Dr. Jessica recommended this powdered drink called Calm (pictured below) and I forgot to take it. Results in tomorrow's post!


Weight: 165.6 - see! Told ya! It's not time to get excited yet :-)
Energy level: Good - honestly, days on end of rain and clouds are making me feel a bit sluggish. I need sun!
BM: Yes, but little bitty today. Hoping for more later.
Other Gastro: Nada
Mental clarity: Pretty darn good
Mood: It would be better if the sun came out and dried up our basement, but for the most part, it's very good.

What I consumed:

Wednesday, May 20, 2015

Day #9

May 19, 2015

It's mah berfday!!!!! I'm fiddy-two and feel thirty-two. That's got to be good, right? More important than any of that is that today is Doctor Jessica day!

I love this woman, she came to me highly recommended by not one but two very dear friends, and I can't say enough good stuff about her. She does some things that make people think she's a witch doctor or (in old school terms) a snake oil salesman. She has helped me in the past with little things like hot flashes, inability to sleep and digestive woes. Now that I have decided to get my diet on track, I think she will really be able to help me. In fact, she already has.

What does this Dr. Jessica do, you ask? Allow me to explain. She is a holistic practitioner, a homeopathic nutritionist. She is a diviner of human bodies. I'm not really sure how to explain to you exactly what she does, but if you can find one RUN to them. Do not walk. But, as with any kind of doctor or whatever, you have to be willing to change based on what she tells you. If not, you won't get better. 

I went to see her on my lunch break today and told her about my quest. She was very pleased and offered to let me borrow a book from her, Hashimoto's Thyroiditis: Lifestyle Interventions for Finding and Treating the Root Cause by Izabella Wents, Pharm. D. I've looked at/through a few books about the disorder but they were all very technical or were trying to sell a diet plan or some lab tests. Anyhow, I don't if this one is any better, but I will read it. She says it's great and also said that the list of foods to avoid will probably be very similar to my NEVER EVER list. 

I ran the supplement thing by her and let her know that I'd stopped taking those with soybean oil, soy byproducts, milk products, etc. She said GOOD! And gave me some vitamin D drops to try, sold me some B12 with no garbage added, and recommended a couple of other items that I picked up. One of them is to help with my blood sugar because it has been a little high lately, and that is troublesome. It's an herb called Gynema in tablet form that I break in half and (try to) suck on for 30 seconds after each main meal before swallowing. I don't know what this stuff is but it tastes kinda awful, and made my stomach warm after I swallowed it. It's worth a shot though, the last thing I want is to be deemed diabetic because that changes everything in the worst possible way. I have no interest in making my body dependent on another chemical!
FACT: until this past week or so, I was not listening to her input. I was being a stubborn brat, whining about the fact that I can't eat like a normal person, and feeling entitled to my chocolate and popcorn. I knew it wasn't working for me, I felt increasingly shitty, and only when my misery reached the lowest low was I able to come to terms with some very harsh reality: I can't eat like a normal person. I'm not normal. I have a disorder that makes my body reject certain foods, and I have to suck it up and get them out of my life or I will forever be sick, and fat. That's that.

Not for nothing, I don't know yet if this approach is going to work long term. It's been nine days, I feel wonderful, less puffy, very "regular", not starving or anything - but I know that there will be relapses. What I'm going for is getting through 90 days to see how I feel then, and see if there is any actual weight loss. But I know this: I can never go back to the way I was eating. NEVER EVER.


Weight: 164 (steady on there mate, it still isn't a trend until it stays off for more than 7 days)
Energy level: Higher than a kite
BM: Had to wait until the afternoon, but YES! Hello!
Other Gastro: Woke up incredibly hungry, ate a piece of bacon, all good
Mental clarity: Super focused, got a lot of work done first thing, and I'm not task hopping. So that's good.
Mood: Two thumbs up!

What I consumed (it was a lot because I wanted a big steak for my birthday...)

Tuesday, May 19, 2015

Day #8

Monday May 18th

I don't want to get all cuckoo here, but I feel fantastic! I feel lighter in spite of what the scale tells me, I feel less bloated (because I am, having no trouble getting rings on and off today), and even my eczema is clearing up. Dude, wtf? Sure, eating better should make anyone feel better, but after only 7 full days?

Again, not wanting to get nuts, but maybe there is hope. Maybe.

The energy level stayed very high all day, into the evening, to the point where I actually had to suck on a Rescue Pastille before leaving work, and popped an all natural chill pill before going to bed. If I didn't know better I would think that my Levathyroxine dose is too high, but that wold be too much of a coincidence. I believe that I'm getting crud out of my body and it's actually making a difference. There is no better motivation to continue the hell diet than feeling great!


Weight: 164.4 - still not getting excited kids, 
Energy level: Amazing. I made it out of the house on a single cup of tea - never happens.
BM: Ha ha, yes!
Other Gastro: 
Mental clarity: Crystal
Mood: Annoyingly fantastic!

What I consumed:

Monday, May 18, 2015

Day #7

Sunday May 17th

I made an amazing discovery yesterday - Trader Joe's makes their own almond milk, and it's relatively unadulterated! And I'm thrilled because of the whole astringent cocounutty thing. As I type I'm having my morning tea, and feeling that scratchy nonsense in the my throat. It's hard to become accustomed to. Coconut milk tastes wonderful and it's far creamier than almond milk, but that scratchiness is going to drive me bonkers. At least this way I can mix it up a little. I may even try to create some kind of hybrid creamer for myself. HA! Love that idea, must make a note...

I didn't have much of an appetite, as is reflected below. All I ate for lunch was a handful of cashews; probably not smart, but that was all I needed. My endo is fond of saying that it doesn't matter WHAT you eat as much as the full factor. Obviously she doesn't condone eating a candy bar for breakfast, but there you have it. If a handful of cashews satisfies then YES. I say YES.


Weight: 165.8
Energy level: Two thumbs up
BM: YES, AGAIN!!! Eight days in row kids, this is amazing. However my 'roids are raging, but that's to be expected.
Other Gastro: 
Mental clarity: Excellent
Mood: As the French might say, incroyable That does not look like a French word at all, I took French for like, 5 semesters and I don't recall a lot of y's in the language. Blame Google Translate if it's wrong; that's where I got it.

What I consumed:

Sunday, May 17, 2015

Day 6

Saturday May 16th

I'm feeling pretty damn good, I must say. Only six days in, with a few mistakes along the way, with some questions about specific things (supplements that I'm still taking, by the way) - I've been very regular, I'm over the coffee headaches and enjoying my extra cups of tea, and I'm not starving. The problem I'm having is finding things to eat for breakfast.

Yesterday I had pork sausage and blackberries, today I just had some leftover steak, and that's that. Not that there's anything wrong with it - I've always been quite the enthusiastic carnivore! But I can see how it will get old quickly, and heavy with fat. My searches for something to make or bake turned up empty. Gluten free, egg free, dairy free recipes that I found all call for at least two things that I can't eat at this time. 

I'm not giving up though, even if it means making up my own recipes (God help us all when I start experimenting!). I'm determined to find a way to make a muffin-like thing that will satisfy and meet my dietary restrictions. God speed, self!


Weight: 166.6 - so you see, this is exactly why I don't get excited about my Friday weight...
Energy level: Good - I slept well but woke up way too early (5:19 - ARGH!)
BM: Hells yeah, every day for the last 7 now!
Other Gastro:
Mental clarity: Excellent
Mood: The sun is shining, it's colder than a witch's tit (44 when I sat down to write)
, breezy and there's a storm coming. I'm in a great mood!

Saturday, May 16, 2015

Day #5

Friday May 15th

Yahoo! HAPPY FRIDAY!!!!!

The REI Anniversary sales starts today! It's the little things, folks. A new pair of hikers and some fresh socks at the start of the summer hiking season is a solid remedy for many things that ail.


Weight: 165 - I'm not getting too excited about this, believe me. Friday is always always always my low weight day, so I don't expect it to be the start of a trend let alone continue this direction, not yet. It's too soon.

Energy level: Excellent
BM: YES! Major! This is crazy!
Other Gastro: No bubbles this morning :-)
Mental clarity: Excellent
Mood: Started out great, but the hubby required my technical support assistance first thing and that always starts my day off on the wrong foot. I tried to walk it off with my little dog but I'm still pissy. It will pass, always does.

I had quite a day! My company utilizes the Innovation Pavilion in Denver to bring together members of the management team who live in and around Denver. I drive up to meet with them every other Friday and enjoy it; we get a lot of things on the table that we don't get to talk about/work in when we're all working separately. On the drive up I received a promotion to Vice President. Literally while I was driving - when I parked my car I had a dozen congratulatory emails. Now that's a good day, I don't care who you are!

Despite a stop at my favorite mall, and a swing around my favorite store (hello Nordstrom, how I miss you!) I had a hell of a time even getting to the Fitbit minimum of 10,000 steps - this is kind of normal on my work-in-Denver days as I do not get out for a walk at lunch (I work through it instead, usually). I'm always hip to take a walk break, but it has rained (poured, actually) both times I've been to the IP to work.

Anyway, here's what I put in my body yesterday:

Friday, May 15, 2015

Day #4

Thursday May 14th

It's almost Friday! But it's humid and my hair is poofy, which drives me a little bonkers. I sense a ponytail in my near future. 

Much more learning this morning (READ ALL THE LABELS!) -  some of my vitamins and supplements have forbidden substances in them. Good times. So now I need to find out if there are replacements for them that do not contain soy, corn syrup, corn starch, etc. I'm hoping that Dr. Jessica will be able to help with this. Or if (hope against hope!) I don't need to worry about such tiny amounts.

Aside from the continuation of bubble guts for reasons I can't begin to fathom, I am feeling much better today. Not sluggish, not jonesing for coffee - pretty darn good. 


Weight: 166.6 - yaya, back to where I started...
Energy level: Feeling good!

BM: 5th day in a row, I seem to be on a roll! A tootsie roll... ha
Other Gastro: Still with the bubble gut
Mental clarity: Excellent
Mood: In keeping with the other positive vitals, I'm feeling happy today, kind of like my usual self with some bubble gut

What I consumed:

Thursday, May 14, 2015

Day #3

Good morning from Ms. Leaky Gut! Hope everyone is swell today.

Today I poured out all of the almond milk I had on hand and replaced it with watered down light coconut milk from Trader Joe's (ingredients: coconut milk, water - amen). I water it down because it is far too viscous in the uncut state. Adding water also cuts down on that astringent quality that I don't really care for, and it kills some of the way-too-coconutty flavor that I don't care for in my tea. 

Learned yet another READ ALL THE LABELS lesson: Bratwurst. The third ingredient is corny syrup. Seriously, why? So yep, I just ate one for lunch, and now I'm all pissed off about it. Once again, stop being a dunderhead Karen. Make all of your own food and leave it at that. Laziness and convenience aren't going to get me anywhere. Duh.


Weight 166 straight up
Energy level: Low until my third cup of PG Tips tea, then it shot up to full of P and V!
BM: A lovely shade of orange and soft - a result of bubble gut from last night, I presume. I would like to note that this is the fourth day in a row I've had a BM which is crazy! I'm usually good for one or two weekly BMs. Not sure how to act.
Other Gastro: Bubble gut is continuing today
Puffiness:A wee bit less; I was able to get my rings on without too much trouble. Can't get them off though.
Mental clarity: I'd give it a solid C today. Yesterday was pure F.
Mood: Down in the dumps, but improved. I'm still tired, I feel fatigued all the time. Not sure anymore if this is from a lack of coffee or just my body giving up some crud.

What I consumed:

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

The Why Behind This Blog

It’s time for a level set, no? Yes. I have started this blog by not telling you exactly why I’m on this crazy journey of trying to lose weight by strictly controlling my diet. I think that’s kind of important. 

I covered a little of the ol’ turf in the first couple of posts (taken from one of my other blogs to start this one, actually) but didn’t cite the proper sources for my NEVER EVER list, and that is not cool. Not good blog form. So here goes. I’ll try to keep the whining to a minimum. You’re welcome.

I have done a bit of reading on my autoimmune disorder because I have yet to meet a doctor that would discuss it as anything but a thyroid problem. Thyroid is a symptom, an indicator, the victim, but not the cause of Hashimoto’s. It seems to me – and I’m no doctor, let’s be very clear about that, I’m a senior manager for a software company – that it would make sense to address the things that are thought to contribute to causing the disorder. Sadly this is really not scientifically known as far as I can tell, and docs aren’t willing to sidestep their pharma solutions to biological problems to help with that part of it. So I seek out books, and even have a non-traditional “witch doctor” helping me (more on that later). 

It was only because of the reading I have done that I stumbled across the gluten connection. No doctor has ever told me to eliminate gluten, ever. I had a tolerance test done years ago that showed I was not gluten intolerant – but that wasn’t the crux of the problem. People with Hashimoto’s also have leaky gut syndrome, and this is due to gluten not being properly digested and absorbed. I don’t want to try to get into all the science-y stuff around that, I got a C in all sciences except earth science, and that was in high school anyway. A million years ago, seemingly. Trust me, you can find many sources to explain this to you far better than I could begin to.

So the story goes, I took myself off of gluten and my doc at the time said “Bravo!” because he too had read about the connection. For a good five years, maybe longer, I’ve been laboring under the belief that gluten was THE problem. Meanwhile I haven’t been getting better. I mean, okay – I’ve gotten better here and there. I’ve had far fewer incidents of gut blow out (a condition in which my stomach triples in size and becomes as hard as a basketball), and for a little while I became more regular and lost a few pounds.

Then I discovered gluten free foods, and this is perhaps where it all went to hell. 

I wasn’t thinking, I was desperate for bread and pasta – anything that would make me feel normal. I stayed away from sugary things because they have always made me feel lousy, but I got all up in the GF craze. Crackers, breads, pie crusts, pasta coming out of my ears… all full of starches (that I know are bad), and all full of things used as wheat substitutes (tapioca starch, rice flour, potato flour, etc.) and most with all kinds of soy (that I know is a problem for me digestively speaking), and I even bought the GF soy sauce! I mean to tell you, I must have lost my mind.

Finding out five years hence that these things might all be causing my gut problems to be perpetuated, perhaps even made worse, was quite a reality check. I must have had a stunned look on my face as the realization dawned on me. No wonder I’m still fat! No wonder I still can’t lose weight no matter what I try! Seriously. Duh. 

The link below is where I started that learning.

And more specifically, here is where I got my list of NEVER EVER food items.

I rather quickly decided that I needed to eliminate these foods from my diet, and do so immediately, to give my gut a chance to heal and see if I could lose weight. Because at this point I’ve been busting my ass and eating next to nothing for several months and have only gained – I am desperate. I admit it. 

I’m taking a very un-scientific approach to this. I’m not going to have any labs run to see what I’m reacting to, I’m not buying anyone’s book, none of it. I will go see my Homeopathic Nutritionist next week and ask her advice, maybe get a good cleanse from her, see if she wants me to take any supplements. She’s a fantastic human being but up until now she hasn’t been able to help me a whole lot, except with sleep. She has helped me a lot there. Of course that may very well be due to my stubborn unwillingness to give up a food that has been a major problem for me, corn. Well that time is over, I humbly submit to the foods I cannot digest.

Another problem I have is with my A1C levels.

This is a fairly recent phenomenon, the past year or so I have tested at pre-diabetic levels (5.9 – 6.1) and have been checking my blood sugars on a fairly regular basis. Next to none of the individual readings are high (they were only high when I ate corn), yet my A1C remains elevated. Why? It has to be food. Has to be! I’m hoping that giving up corn and some of the other foodstuffs that act like gluten will lead to lowered A1C levels, and eventually to my no longer having to do the finger sticks. 

I'm taking this public because I want other people with Hashimoto's to know that they aren't alone. I want to share my successes and failures with anyone that cares to read about them, and maybe find some hope in the knowledge that there are many of us fighting this demon.
Okay. I think that’s enough to get started with. Onward! Upward! And hopefully in time, downward in weight!