What a difference a day (and a new supplement) makes! Dr. Jessica gave me a bottle of some liquid stuff that I cannot for the life of me recall the name of right now, sorry. I will put it in the blog tomorrow for sure. Fifteen drops under the tongue before bed and upon waking, and I swear to you - I feel better already. I'm not dragging ass today, I have energy and my eyes don't feel like they're being pulled down by anchors. WOW.
In an act of sheer desperation I put on my beef bone broth last night. I used more meaty (ox tail) bones this time, I browned all of them longer, I deglazed the vessel I browned the pieces in, I measured my water carefully and added an extra tablespoon of apple cider vinegar and stuck it in the crock pot. I was trying to avoid using the crock pot because I had such better success using the dutch oven on the stove, but I did run out of chicken broth so I couldn't wait until tonight to start the beef. I'm quite sure this broth will take a lot longer than I want it to, and it will reduce by more volume than I'd like but c'est la vie. I will pick up an organic chicken this afternoon, roast it and start chicken broth on the stove tonight - that will be done in 12 hours or so, saving me from being broth free for any length of time. If I'm careful about rationing what I have left I should be able to get three meals from it. I'm adding avocado again to be sure that I get full on less broth.
It's a very quiet day at work, and when I say very I mean VERY. I have music on, half the company seems to be off today, and the only other sound is one of our Marketing people on a call. In spite of that I'm not sleepy! Today feels like a miracle to me, I hope this isn't a one day kind of thing.
Weight: 157.4 (seriously... rolling my eyes)
Energy level: Great!
BM: Yep! A small morning fella.
Other Gastro: Little bubbly in the gut this morning
Mental clarity: Great!
Exercise: Walked the dog, took myself out for a 3.2 mile interval walk/jog. Good times.
Other: I don't wish to discourage anyone, but misery does love company. I want to impart to you (because I don't say these words very often) how difficult this is. I am, and you will be, surrounded by temptation in the form of delicious, handy and inexpensive food choices. As I walked through the kitchen at work today, one of my minions was making microwave popcorn (aka the devil). I smelled it, and watched her pour the contents of the bag into a bowl. Those fluffy, unnaturally white, garbage coated kernels of deliciousness were within two feet of my gullet. Did I want some? OHMYDEARGODYES. I have a thing for popcorn. A big thing. The day before I started my elimination diet back in May I went to the movies just so I could eat some movie theater popcorn.
And it's not just that, trust me. The shelves of the grocery stores are full of quick, tasty, cheap eats that are just a big, fat NO. Even the Gluten Free sections - holy crap! They make GF bake at home cookies now, along with muffins of every description, chocolate and yogurt covered pretzels, pop tarts, sugary cereal - you name it, they make that shit gluten free now. And it's BAD because people tra-la-la along and eat this junk but never check the labels - they are likely getting more sugar and more carbs than they would have with the regular stuff.
K, so much for that rant. Back to what I was actually talking about. This is hard, because you have to stick with the hard choices, even if that means going hungry now and then. Even if you feel like you should be able to eat whatever the hell you want because everyone else does - stop thinking like that, I implore you. Everyone else isn't you, and you sure aren't everyone else. I get pissy sometimes and have a little pity party, but I'm not about to undo all the (fingers crossed) positive things I've done up to this point. Starting over would be a nightmare, and I might just say 'fuck it' and throw in the towel. No matter how much I want a latte right now, or how much I want to eat a big spoonfull of peanut butter, I'm not going to.
Staying strong through this process, that's the battle. But my health is worth it, and so is yours.