How in the name of God did it get to be August already?! Time is flying! Too quickly!
I got my days mixed up. I thought I had a massage today but it's tomorrow, so we went kayaking today instead of going tomorrow. Which is fine, I was just really looking forward to that massage! It will probably do more good after kayaking, my shoulders are killing me and that means my neck hurts too, so there you go.
Today I am disappointed in myself.
I feel that I'm verging on overeating, an old habit, an old friend that should be a sworn enemy. I started snacking on Dang coconut chips a couple of weeks ago and it has become a full blown addiction. So now I have to tell myself NO, and not buy those anymore, and that's that. No more! Don't ruin all of the hard work and suffering, don't get back to hating yourself, don't! Damn it. You'd think I'd know better by now.
I gained weight, is the other problem. This has me questioning my decision to change my goal to weight to a number that I haven't been at since I was 40, and that (for the record) was a long time ago. Twelve years. Again, where does the time go? I don't know, to my waist? Anyway, I'm thinking I should have left well enough alone at 150 instead of getting all cocky and thinking I could hit 145. Henceforth I am leaving my goal at 145 as a mental game (so that I don't let myself get to 150 again, mainly) but I am happy with my weight.
Before and after pictures coming tomorrow. I'm too much of a mess today, got lots to do and I haven't even showered yet!
So I introduced cocoa today by making the simplest candy-thing I've ever encountered:
6 Tb coconut oil
3 Tb raw honey
6 Tb cocoa powder
Melt the oil, add the honey and stir to combine. Add the cocoa and stir until it's dissolved, then take off the heat. Pour into candy molds, sprinkle with sea salt and freeze for two hours.
I don't have candy molds so I put a piece of parchment into a pie tin and poured the chocolate in there. After it froze for two hours I took it out of the freezer, broke it apart and put it into a sealed container to keep in the fridge. Done and done, and it's really good!
Weight: 147.4 - see what I mean? Gaining!
Energy level: Decent, but I'm tired after a morning of kayaking
BM: Marbles today, which means I need more fat. I'm also struggling to go a lot. My poop is too dry and too hard
Other Gastro: Nothing to report - no reaction to cocoa yet (fingers crossed)
Mental clarity: Great
Exercise: Kayaking, and I'll be doing some jogging on my trampoline because it's too damned hot outside to do anything there.
Other: Nothing to report